The 'End of the Line': A GTA San Andreas Theory on Death and the Credit Roll

I am an eternal student, for whom this universe is a vast library, and life is a membership in that library.

What are we really like at the end of the day, since we came to this world?

Life and the 'End of the Line'

Those who have played video games, especially GTA San Andreas, know that the game's final mission is called 'End of the Line'. In that mission, after many chases and explosions, when everything calms down, CJ chats with his friends, and slowly the names appear on the screen—who made the game, who provided the music. I think death is the same. When this last mission called life is over, maybe a pair of 'credit rolls' will appear before our eyes. With a strange peace, we will see how perfectly our 'developer' designed this game. We will have no more duties; we will sit quietly.

 

The Mystery of Our 'Developers' and Coding

I often wonder, if the Creator wants it, why is there so much chaos in the world? I look for the answer with technology. If a game developer wants to, he can code it so that no character in the game ever goes the wrong way or commits a crime. The Creator could also delete the software that makes us 'bad'.

 

But he didn't do that. Why? Because he is not 'testing' us; he is 'developing' us. We may be prototypes in an infinite cycle of evolution, constantly trying to improve ourselves. That's why I don't believe in the concept of 'hell' or 'punishment'. A developer cannot hate his creation; he wants to keep updating it.

 

Energy transformation: Will I survive as grass?

That scientific formula really attracts me—energy never ends. I think, when I am no more, this body of mine will merge with the ground. Maybe a young grass will grow from there, or a giant banyan tree. When a bird eats the fruit of that tree, I will fly into the sky on the wings of that bird. This way, I will live in some form or another in this universe. Death does not mean an end; it only means changing form.

 

My biggest fear: Separation from the unknown

Everyone is afraid of Yamaraj or Azrael, but my fear lies elsewhere. I am so scared of thinking that I have not been able to know everything! The world is changing so fast, new knowledge is being born all the time. If I leave today, then in the next twenty or thirty years, what discoveries people have made, what secrets of the universe have been solved—I will no longer know them. This unilateral separation of not being able to see the unknown is the biggest regret of death for me.

 

Last words

Socrates said that the only thing he knows is that he knows nothing. I also belong to that group. I don't need any boundaries to be moral or a good person. I am good because I know that we are all connected.

I want to remain a lifelong student. Because the day this 'why' inside me dies, that is the day I truly die. Until then, let's just read, know, and be more curious.